Mostly Smitten ;)

mood: smitten and pissed off

Two particularly strange emotions blending together are making my head whirl around in circles. lets start with nummer zwei...

i am sick and tired of the misconception that life revolves around sex. who's getting some from who, and who's hot and who's not, and movies that seem to always have to have a sex scene in them... it just drives me crazy! sex is everywhere! its on tv, its at work, its at school, its on the computer, its in commercials, its in magazines, in books, on the radio... everywhere. and i just dont understand what's so damn important about sex that everybody makes such a big deal of it.

sex has been made as casual an encoutner as one shaking hands with another. its like, people meet and like each other, and immediately its, "oh, lets have sex." its been made and essential part of relationships, even in high school. you can't seem to talk to someone in a relationship without hearing something about their sex life.

now, for all you reading this and scoffing at my naivety: yes, i am a virgin, and very proud of it. i dont need sex in my life to feel confident with myself; it certianly wouldnt help with my well being. however, i know that it is a beautiful and wonderful thing, even if ive never experienced it. but there's a major thing wrong with all the world's view of sex.

sex was not meant for unmarried people. because marriage is a covenant of love between a man and a woman meant to last forever, sex is safe and beautiful for these people because it is of love. all other sex and sexual desires are derived from lust. lust is one of the worst sins, in my opinion, because it is so difficult to break. and it consumes people, drives them mad. people become so crazy from this that they will pay someone to satisfy this urge... its amazing what money can buy. lust tears people apart... which is something i think the majority of the world doesn't understand. i think everyone wants to have sex, its just a matter of when and with who. if you want it to be special as god made it to be, be patient... god will lead you the right way.

as to nummer eins on my emotions... im not too sure what to say about it. my friends and family laugh at me, but i smile quietly (though about to burst with joy) at the mere thought of the boy down the street. *sigh* and i thought i was through with him... just being in his presence makes me so happy..... i dont understand. hahahhaaa. im so retarded...