I hate that that time is over, and yet I see the advantages. I really love those people so much, but it's taken more out of me than it should have, I see now. It was really exhausting to love them. I guess it's not anymore because I'm not confronted with their problems daily. But I don't regret it! I always wanted to know. I wanted to know everything. I figured I had to know just in case I could help. But then I was usually not helpful... I just cared so much about all of them that when they made mistakes I wanted to fix it. I couldn't stand to see anyone of them hurting. It really tore me up inside. It sounds so stupid, but its true. Right now I only see a couple. And I'm so busy now, its almost that I push it to the back of my mind so that I can stay focused. I'll never stop loving them all... it's almost like a curse. But not that I'd want to stop...
I feel like I'm one of those people who gives herself away without question, but very silently so that nobody knows. Sometimes I break and let them know. Maybe its better when I do?... But then... I think it would be better if I didn't care so much. Then maybe I'd save some of myself for God, or for me. I don't know.
Right now, life is good. I'm too busy to worry too much. But I still miss everyone from the house. It really was fun, and we had some great times. I felt the same way when Leslie left Willows, and then left California. We had a good time, and now it's over. I miss it, but realize the necessity of it ending.
Nostalgia's a bitch.
10.28.2007
10.22.2007
More boredom
1. Who was the last person to call you baby? Uhm, I dont remember.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Of course!
3. If you got the chance to kiss the last person you kissed, would you? Of course.
4. Has someone ever sang a song to you? Not a whole one, I don't think...
5. Do you play suduko? I've played it like, once or twice. Too much math for me XP
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive? Sure O.o
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first things you would grab? I'd try to find the roommates and make sure they're out. Other than that probably nothing.
19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with? Um..... Stacy? yeah, haha.
20. Who do you text the most? Cindy or Sean, surely. But I don't text much.
21. Who do you like? I like most people.
22. What color are your eyes? Brown.
23. How tall are you? 5'10"
25. Do you like your parents? I do (usually).
26. Do you secretly like someone? Not secretly.
27. Why did your last relationship end? Because we didn't really know each other. *stupid*
28. Who likes you? Some people... Uriel for sure, haha.
29. Where is the furthest place you have traveled? La Manzanilla, Mexico or Massachusets... not sure which is farther.
32. Do you like mustard? no >.<
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? Sleep :D
34. Do you look like your mom or dad? A little of both.
35. 45 minutes or longer? O.o
36. Can you do a split? Uhm, no.
37. What movie do you want to see right now? Right now, none.
40. Do you think The Grudge was crappy? I couldn't tell ya.
43. Was your mom a cheerleader? Nope.
45. What's the last letter of your middle name? Y.
47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? between 5 and 8.
48. Do you like care bears? ...Sure.
49. What do you buy at the Movies? A ticket to get in, haha. And sometimes popcorn.
50. Do you know how to play poker? I know how, but don't really enjoy it.
51. Do you wear your seatbelt? Of course.
52. What do you wear to sleep? Usually whatever shirt I'm wearing and pajama pants.
53. Anything big ever happen in your town? I don't really have a "town", per sè...
54. is your hair straight or curly? Curly right now :D
55. Is your tongue pierced? Nope, lip is enough for me.
56. Do you like Liver and Onions? I'm not sure... sounds kinda gross though.
58. Do you like funny or serious people better? I'd rather have a mature funny person.
59. Ever been to L.A? Yes.
60. Who is on your mind right now ? Uhm, Uriel I guess. And Erica.
61. Any plans for tonight? Class and sleep. -_-
62. What's your favorite song at the moment? I'm not sure... I woke up with "Hey Jude", "Ammunition" (Switchfoot) and a Plain White T's song all stuck in my head, haha. There's too many songs in the world to pick just one :)
63. Do you hate chocolate? ...*shocked at blasphemy*
64. What do you and your parents fight about the most? They don't like the piercings and tattoos.
66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy? Nope.
67. What do people usually mistake you for? A giraffe.
68. Are you easy to get along with? I think so.
69. What is your favorite time of day? The evening.
70. Are you a generally happy person? Yes.
2. When shopping at the grocery store, do you return your cart? Of course!
3. If you got the chance to kiss the last person you kissed, would you? Of course.
4. Has someone ever sang a song to you? Not a whole one, I don't think...
5. Do you play suduko? I've played it like, once or twice. Too much math for me XP
6. If abandoned alone in the wilderness would you survive? Sure O.o
18. If your house was on fire, what would be the first things you would grab? I'd try to find the roommates and make sure they're out. Other than that probably nothing.
19. Who was the last person you shared a bed with? Um..... Stacy? yeah, haha.
20. Who do you text the most? Cindy or Sean, surely. But I don't text much.
21. Who do you like? I like most people.
22. What color are your eyes? Brown.
23. How tall are you? 5'10"
25. Do you like your parents? I do (usually).
26. Do you secretly like someone? Not secretly.
27. Why did your last relationship end? Because we didn't really know each other. *stupid*
28. Who likes you? Some people... Uriel for sure, haha.
29. Where is the furthest place you have traveled? La Manzanilla, Mexico or Massachusets... not sure which is farther.
32. Do you like mustard? no >.<
33. Do you prefer to sleep or eat? Sleep :D
34. Do you look like your mom or dad? A little of both.
35. 45 minutes or longer? O.o
36. Can you do a split? Uhm, no.
37. What movie do you want to see right now? Right now, none.
40. Do you think The Grudge was crappy? I couldn't tell ya.
43. Was your mom a cheerleader? Nope.
45. What's the last letter of your middle name? Y.
47. How many hours of sleep do you get a night? between 5 and 8.
48. Do you like care bears? ...Sure.
49. What do you buy at the Movies? A ticket to get in, haha. And sometimes popcorn.
50. Do you know how to play poker? I know how, but don't really enjoy it.
51. Do you wear your seatbelt? Of course.
52. What do you wear to sleep? Usually whatever shirt I'm wearing and pajama pants.
53. Anything big ever happen in your town? I don't really have a "town", per sè...
54. is your hair straight or curly? Curly right now :D
55. Is your tongue pierced? Nope, lip is enough for me.
56. Do you like Liver and Onions? I'm not sure... sounds kinda gross though.
58. Do you like funny or serious people better? I'd rather have a mature funny person.
59. Ever been to L.A? Yes.
60. Who is on your mind right now ? Uhm, Uriel I guess. And Erica.
61. Any plans for tonight? Class and sleep. -_-
62. What's your favorite song at the moment? I'm not sure... I woke up with "Hey Jude", "Ammunition" (Switchfoot) and a Plain White T's song all stuck in my head, haha. There's too many songs in the world to pick just one :)
63. Do you hate chocolate? ...*shocked at blasphemy*
64. What do you and your parents fight about the most? They don't like the piercings and tattoos.
66. Do you need a boyfriend/girlfriend to be happy? Nope.
67. What do people usually mistake you for? A giraffe.
68. Are you easy to get along with? I think so.
69. What is your favorite time of day? The evening.
70. Are you a generally happy person? Yes.
10.14.2007
Unusual?
Tired of those same old 55 questions about me surveys? Well here are 55 I guarantee you've never answered.
1. Is your second toe longer than your first? They're the same, actually.
2. Do you have a favorite type of pen? Yep. :D I'm a pen nerd.
3. Look at your planner for October 14, what are you doing? Hey, that's today! Church and work for me.
4.What color are your toenails usually? They usually have some remenant of whatever color I painted them a month ago. Right now happens to be dark purple.
5. What was the last thing you highlighted? Heather's answer :P
6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom? No curtains, haha.
7. What color are the seats in your car? Grey.
8. Have you ever had a black and white cat? Uhm... I don't believe so. I had a black and white dog... (poor Reba ;_;)
9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on? The envelope mailing the check for my photo book.
10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming? I do.
11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time? I don't remember, actually.
12. Whose is the last baby that you held? Uhm, I'm not sure. Its been so long :(
13.Can you spell well? Sure.... O.o
14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste? Not really. It just doesn't seem right to be cleaning my teeth with.
15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago? 2 years ago, hm... I had the Killer Rabbit then! I had just gotten it. '98 Ford Escort.
16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators? Gators?
17. Last time you went to Six Flags? I've never been.
18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house? Nope, thank God.
19. Closest thing to you that is yellow: A library pamphlet.
20. Last person to give you a business card? Probably Joe or Samantha.
21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to? Erica, I think.
22. Do you know what happened to #22? One of those Florida gators ate it.
23. Last time you had someone cook for you? At mom's last month.
25. How many emails do you get in your inbox (excluding spam)? Not many.
26. Last time you received flowers? Never. :(
27. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman? Christian biblical marriage, yes. But there are other types of marriages.
28. Do you play the guitar? I tried once. I hope I can again.
29. Has anyone ever proposed to you? Nope.
30. Do you take anything in your coffee? Creamer usually, but I could go without.
31. Do you have any Willow Tree figurines? I think so?
32. What is/was your high school's rival mascot? Well, one was the Trojans, and as Heather's answer has informed me, the other was the Arrows. O.o
33. Last person you spoke to from high school? Kristen. But she's from so much more than high school :P
34. Last time you used hand sanitizer? Last Sunday maybe?
35. Would you like to learn to play the drums? Yes. But I don't think I'd do very well.
36. What color are the blinds in your living room? White. (But they look gray b/c of the dust :P)
37. The last thing you procrastinated on? The Project. :(
38. Last thing you read in the newspaper? Comics, hehe.
39. What was the last pageant you attended? Uhm... none.
40. What is the last place you bought pizza from? Dominos. Wasn't that good.
41. Have you ever worn a crown? Only the birthday/Burger King kind.
42. What is the last thing you stapled? My head to the carpet!!!!! Oh noes!!! (j/k)
43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi? No.
44. Are you ticklish? Yes. It's like a weakness.
45. Last time you saw fireworks? The fourth of July 2006. No fireworks this year :(
46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut? Over the summer sometime.
47. Who is the last person that left you a text message & you actually returned it? My mama.
48. Last time you parked under a carport? I'm not sure.
49. Do you have a black dog? Nope.
50.Can you give one reason why David Carouso is allowed to keep acting? Not a one. I'm really sick of that guy. Good think I don't watch CSI Miami anymore, I might have shot myself by now.
51. Are you an aunt or uncle? Nope. That won't be happening for awhile!
52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of? Cindy's are real pretty, but so are my mom's. And Uriel's. And Isabelle's. Its hard to say, haha.
53. Last time you saw a semi truck? Today probably. I wasn't really paying attention, haha.
54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe? .... no.
55. Do you have a little black dress? No, but I do have a black corset :D
1. Is your second toe longer than your first? They're the same, actually.
2. Do you have a favorite type of pen? Yep. :D I'm a pen nerd.
3. Look at your planner for October 14, what are you doing? Hey, that's today! Church and work for me.
4.What color are your toenails usually? They usually have some remenant of whatever color I painted them a month ago. Right now happens to be dark purple.
5. What was the last thing you highlighted? Heather's answer :P
6. What color are the curtains in your bedroom? No curtains, haha.
7. What color are the seats in your car? Grey.
8. Have you ever had a black and white cat? Uhm... I don't believe so. I had a black and white dog... (poor Reba ;_;)
9. What is the last thing you put a stamp on? The envelope mailing the check for my photo book.
10. Do you know anyone who lives in Wyoming? I do.
11. Why did you withdraw cash from the ATM the last time? I don't remember, actually.
12. Whose is the last baby that you held? Uhm, I'm not sure. Its been so long :(
13.Can you spell well? Sure.... O.o
14. Do you like Cinnamon toothpaste? Not really. It just doesn't seem right to be cleaning my teeth with.
15. What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago? 2 years ago, hm... I had the Killer Rabbit then! I had just gotten it. '98 Ford Escort.
16. Pick one: Miami Hurricanes or Florida Gators? Gators?
17. Last time you went to Six Flags? I've never been.
18. Do you have any wallpaper in your house? Nope, thank God.
19. Closest thing to you that is yellow: A library pamphlet.
20. Last person to give you a business card? Probably Joe or Samantha.
21. Who is the last person you wrote a check to? Erica, I think.
22. Do you know what happened to #22? One of those Florida gators ate it.
23. Last time you had someone cook for you? At mom's last month.
25. How many emails do you get in your inbox (excluding spam)? Not many.
26. Last time you received flowers? Never. :(
27. Do you think the sanctity of marriage is meant for only a man & woman? Christian biblical marriage, yes. But there are other types of marriages.
28. Do you play the guitar? I tried once. I hope I can again.
29. Has anyone ever proposed to you? Nope.
30. Do you take anything in your coffee? Creamer usually, but I could go without.
31. Do you have any Willow Tree figurines? I think so?
32. What is/was your high school's rival mascot? Well, one was the Trojans, and as Heather's answer has informed me, the other was the Arrows. O.o
33. Last person you spoke to from high school? Kristen. But she's from so much more than high school :P
34. Last time you used hand sanitizer? Last Sunday maybe?
35. Would you like to learn to play the drums? Yes. But I don't think I'd do very well.
36. What color are the blinds in your living room? White. (But they look gray b/c of the dust :P)
37. The last thing you procrastinated on? The Project. :(
38. Last thing you read in the newspaper? Comics, hehe.
39. What was the last pageant you attended? Uhm... none.
40. What is the last place you bought pizza from? Dominos. Wasn't that good.
41. Have you ever worn a crown? Only the birthday/Burger King kind.
42. What is the last thing you stapled? My head to the carpet!!!!! Oh noes!!! (j/k)
43. Did you ever drink clear Pepsi? No.
44. Are you ticklish? Yes. It's like a weakness.
45. Last time you saw fireworks? The fourth of July 2006. No fireworks this year :(
46. Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut? Over the summer sometime.
47. Who is the last person that left you a text message & you actually returned it? My mama.
48. Last time you parked under a carport? I'm not sure.
49. Do you have a black dog? Nope.
50.Can you give one reason why David Carouso is allowed to keep acting? Not a one. I'm really sick of that guy. Good think I don't watch CSI Miami anymore, I might have shot myself by now.
51. Are you an aunt or uncle? Nope. That won't be happening for awhile!
52. Who has the prettiest eyes that you know of? Cindy's are real pretty, but so are my mom's. And Uriel's. And Isabelle's. Its hard to say, haha.
53. Last time you saw a semi truck? Today probably. I wasn't really paying attention, haha.
54. Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe? .... no.
55. Do you have a little black dress? No, but I do have a black corset :D
10.07.2007
You must answer every question TRUTHFULLY!!!
[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex's are up to? Well, I could just ask him. The only one who really matters I talk to anyways...
[02] Have you ever been given roses? Not yet ;_;
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie? Probably Ever After and Runaway Bride. *hides face in shame*
[04] Have you honestly been in love? Yep.
[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? I think so... but that's another one of those things that God choses not to tell us for sure I think.
[06] What's your current problem? I don't think it's really a problem yet.
[07] Have you ever had your heart broken? It sure felt like it.
[08] Had a Long Distance Relationship? Yes. Not fun.
[10] Do you believe the statement, once a cheater always a cheater? You don't have to get back together with them to forgive them.
[11] How many kids do you want to have? Enough.
[12] What is(are) your favorite color(s)? Uhm, I like them all. Painting will do that to you ;)
[14] Do you believe you truly only love once? No, I think you can truly love again, but the previous love(s) have to be put behind you.
[15] Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married? Probably would just stay at home and paint all day, spending time with God not with another man.
[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex? When I was 10. Right before I left Klamath Falls I liked this boy called C. J., haha.
[17] What song do you want to hear at your wedding? I Have You by Glenn Cambell, maybe not at the wedding, but as the first dance or something.
[18] Do you know someone who likes you? Yes! :D
[19] Do you like someone? Yes. Its very nice.
[01] Do you ever wonder what your ex's are up to? Well, I could just ask him. The only one who really matters I talk to anyways...
[02] Have you ever been given roses? Not yet ;_;
[03] What is your all-time favorite romance movie? Probably Ever After and Runaway Bride. *hides face in shame*
[04] Have you honestly been in love? Yep.
[05] Do you believe that everyone has a soul-mate? I think so... but that's another one of those things that God choses not to tell us for sure I think.
[06] What's your current problem? I don't think it's really a problem yet.
[07] Have you ever had your heart broken? It sure felt like it.
[08] Had a Long Distance Relationship? Yes. Not fun.
[10] Do you believe the statement, once a cheater always a cheater? You don't have to get back together with them to forgive them.
[11] How many kids do you want to have? Enough.
[12] What is(are) your favorite color(s)? Uhm, I like them all. Painting will do that to you ;)
[14] Do you believe you truly only love once? No, I think you can truly love again, but the previous love(s) have to be put behind you.
[15] Imagine you're 79 and your spouse just died, would you get re-married? Probably would just stay at home and paint all day, spending time with God not with another man.
[16] At what age did you start noticing the opposite sex? When I was 10. Right before I left Klamath Falls I liked this boy called C. J., haha.
[17] What song do you want to hear at your wedding? I Have You by Glenn Cambell, maybe not at the wedding, but as the first dance or something.
[18] Do you know someone who likes you? Yes! :D
[19] Do you like someone? Yes. Its very nice.
Fallimento d'italiano
Sono stanco. Il mio affaticamento è non perche il mio programma, ma perche la mia mente ha me ingannato. Amo la vità. Il mio italiano c'è patetico. :(
Yeah, I had to look up every other word... I suck. I pretty much know how to work the grammar, I just need to learn more vocabulary and remember it, and practice speaking. -_- I love learning to speak other languages, I'm just not as good at it as I'd like to be. Maybe when/if I go to Italy it will be easier because I'll be surrounded in it. Spero sarà facile...
Yeah, I had to look up every other word... I suck. I pretty much know how to work the grammar, I just need to learn more vocabulary and remember it, and practice speaking. -_- I love learning to speak other languages, I'm just not as good at it as I'd like to be. Maybe when/if I go to Italy it will be easier because I'll be surrounded in it. Spero sarà facile...
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