what sleep will come, indeed

ok. so the past few days keep flashing through my mind. my feelings are numb, my brain is mush. lord please pull me out of this stupor; sweet as it may feel to be immersed in oblivion, i must find a way out. i need to wake up. wake up to LIFE. life is here, all around me, why am i doubting? what's there to second-guess? live day by day, i like to say, and usually is what ends up happening. but sometimes i feel like a train without a track to drive on, a ship with a broken mast, an actor whos missing a cue line. sometimes my head flies away..... while i stay here and wallow... my, what sleep will come...